I have suffered from these since i was 15 years old...It all began when i was out one summers day with my boyfriend and my cousin i was walking back over the hill to sit with them when i found them kissing, my heart broke and i ran across the park to my house it wasn't long until my cousin appeared in the doorway to my bedroom, I half expected a tearful apology but instead i was told he didn't want to be with me and wanted her and her next words i will never forget...."Maybe if you where not so fat he wouldn't of dumped you".
after that i began restricting my eating and purging anything bad that i eat i got down to my lowest of 115lbs.
I then met my current boyfriend and moved country to be with him which is when my BED kicked in i began gaining due to the trauma of leaving my parents and little sister behind, not long after i kicked myself into touch and began loosing again but i was far from my 115lbs i once was but nether the less i turned myself around, until i got the phone call to tell me my uncle had died.... everything no longer mattered and i began to gain and binge again i then had to leave my boyfriend and move back home where i developed depression and eat to fill up that hole in my heart.
Then i decided enough was enough and i packed my bags and went to stay with my boyfriend for a while i then got my own flat and have since decorated and got everything the way i want it as well as having my boyfriend back in my life :)
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